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it was such a disappointment when u didnt turn up the last day. i was really hoping to get to talk to u or at least get your name or find out where i ve met/seen you before. guess that ll remain a mystery till who knows if our paths will ever cross again ): sometimes i frustrate myself for not going the extra mile. if only i wasnt in such a rush that night or just stopped for a moment to think, i m sure i wouldnt be left hanging in the air now. gosh.. this is so frustrating for me right now. bleah.

been home for a week already. the weather in singapore is seriously driving me crazy. it s so hot and humid. amazing how i ve yet to pass out under the heat.

havent updated in a month and i just wanted to blog at least once in june so here i am. i m back in singapore (: got back early this morning. been back on sing ground for about 15hours and i m lovin every moment of it even though i havent done much. haha. it s just been awesome being back with the family. i havent seen my brother yet though cause he s all checked in at westin hotel for asian youth games. meant to go down and visit him today but i would have to wear a mask just in case of the H1N1 and i dont really wanna wear a mask in the hotel. look quite noob. haha. but actually the main reason i didnt go down was, i ended up sleeping. suffering from a real bad case of jet lag.

i slept for 3 hours when i got back and got up at 645am.. and then i had breakfast, slacked around a lil and then i went to sleep for 4 hours. my sleeping pattern is def screwed up big time. oh wells. i m gonna head down to swimfast for a paddle later to loosen up. i m glad my lil sis is with me spending time. hopefully i havent annoyed the shit outta her. haha.

as much as i love being home, i miss my girlies in arkansas alrd. it s so diff not having them around. 10 months of seeing them every single day. go figure. but i ll be reunited with them before i know it so for now... it s home sweet home. gonna enjoy home with my family and friends. i m excited to see my bro race at AYG and do us proud. it s crazy walking ard and seeing his posters around at train stations and stuff. i havent seen them but that s what my mum and sis told me. poster boy. who would think. my dear brother. lol

anyhow, really hope he races well and do everyone proud. i love my family (:

two weeks of summer school down. 4 to go. gotta say that it s going by pretty fast. i m only left with one month of school and then i ll get to take a long break from studying. i was just looking back at things and i ve realised how much more i ve enjoyed studying ever since coming to the US. i remember back in the days of st nicks, i hated going to school so badly. talk about studying. it was worst cause i felt no matter how hard i studied, i was gonna fail anyway so what s the point. but since coming to the US, it has been entirely different. i realy enjoy studying and going to school. most of the time at least. cause i know that as long as i go to class, do the assignments and study, i can get good grades. if i work hard, my grades will reflect it. unlike sec school where even if i were to work my butt off.. i ll still not get good grades at all. which totally sucks. therefore, i m really grateful that i got this opportunity to be here and actually enjoy learning, meeting new people, and experiencing life.

the weather here has been pretty nice. no longer cold. nice and warm out even though the beginning of the week was rainy and cloudy but at least it wasnt cold.

i m waiting for the dining hall to be open at 11 so that i can go have brunch. really hungry even though i had a bagel already. maybe i should do some work now before brunch. i have a paper to write later which i really do not want to. sunday is lazy day. i dont wanna do anything at all.

oh.. and on a random note, i chopped my hair on thursday. it was just above the mid of my back before i chopped it and now it s slightly just below my ears. feels kinda weird losing all that hair but i love my new haircut.

YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!KRIS ALLEN

WON!!!!!!! YAY ARKANSAS!!!!!!!!!

i totally screamed my lungs out when the results were announced. i was going crazy. haha. yay arkansas!!! it was totally mind blowing/amazing! my votes definitely helped. yay kris!!!

american idol results tonight!!! i m so excited. i m pretty sure adam is gonna win but i m secretly hoping that kris will win. GO KRIS GO!!! be the dark horse and win!!!!!!!!

american idol finale in 30 mins!!! woohoo!!! i cant wait. i m so excited. pls let kris win. i hope he has a knock out performance tonight. go arkansas go!!!! i m fosho voting for him tonight. i m all set. we re having an american idol watch party in my room later. in the meantime, i m gonna do some reading first before it starts.

GO KRIS GO!!!!!!!!!!

all moved in and suited in the dorm. really nice to be back in a room of my own. arms are defintiely aching from moving boxes yesterday. i m rooming with jill and lisa. they re really fun to be with. today was the official first day of summer school. i m taking two classes- leadership communication and intro to rhetorical theory. all i can say is there is a ton of reading everday for both classes. boo. and there s a quiz everyday in leadership comm. i could prob list a million other bad things abt this two classes. but the point is, summer school sucks. thank god this will be my first and last time taking it. i dont not like it at all. i shant/ cant go into details right now cause I HAVE TO GO READ FOR CLASS TMR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway.. this morning during training we had to get out of the pool for abt 10 mins cause the fire alarm in the building went off and the firemen came. dont really know wht happened but it was really funny cause all of us had to evacuate the building and we were just standing out there in our swimsuit and cap.

ok.. i really need to read so that i can go to bed. i m so tired. i officially hate summer school. bah.

i m gonna be moving into the dorms in about 2 hours! i m excited to have my own room. i m hoping the weather will be nice when i move in cause when i had to move out of the dorms, it was pouring!!! needless to say, i was drenched and so were my friends, fletch and megan who so kindly helped me moved. please have nice weather for today.

summer school starts tmr. kinda excited but at the same time not really wanting school to start. mixed feelings. but i m gonna try and look forward to it cause the faster i get over it, means the faster and closer it ll be to going home to sunny singapore.

a little movie update for the week..

caught fighting starring channing tatum on wednesday with summer and gina after american idol. nothing too fantastic.

then comes the x men movie marathon... totally loved it. esp x-men origins: wolverine

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KRIS ALLEN IS IN THE FINAL OF AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

despite the upsetting thunderstorm weather after my nap, causing me not being able to lay out -_- yesterday, it was a good and chill day for me. it started storming abt an hour after i got up form my nap hence the plans of laying out to enjoy the afternoon sun had to be aborted. stayed in, watched TV, ate chips, and got fat. haha. then i went with gina and summer's dad to wal mart and home depot as he had to run errands. summer s dad is so much fun. he s super funny. totally can see why summer turned out like that. haha.i love that girl to bits. he made dinner for us as he felt bad that we had to take him around to run errands in the rain. and he had to do them cause he was leaving to go back to washington state today early morning. so he was getting some stuff for her and her apartment. we had mini pzzas for dinner. it was delicious. i shall TRY and attempt to make it when i go home this summer.

Then we or actually mainly it was me watching AMERICAN IDOL!!!!! i m currently kinda hooked on it but this season is really good. it s down to the top 3 singers- danny, kris and adam. today's voting results and i m so excited for it. i would totally die if kris doesnt get into the final. kris is from ARKANSAS!!!!! yay eh.. someone from arkansas is actually on american idol and he CAN sing!!! and he can play the piano and guitar too!!! how talented is that. def brownie points. he s married with a pretty wife thou. that s not the point. can u imagine how insane it is that someone from arkansas is actually on the show? bet people in singapore watching american idol must be.. huh.. arkansas? where the hell is that? but hey.. now people know because of him (: kris sang apologize by one republic last night and played the piano with it. it was a pretty good just because he could actually play the piano. a surprise there. the song was chosen by kara, the new judge and i totally hated.. HATED her for the comments he gave kris after the show. but i totally loved simon for his comments to her. thank you simon. i really wish they hadnt put kara on the show. i honest to god, do not like her AT ALL. but whatev, kris' second song was heartless by kanye west and he played the guitar along with it. all i can say was, he was AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!! totally nailed it. even better than the orginal version by kanye. i m def going to buy that song on itunes. i loved it.

danny wasnt too bad last night too esp his second song. i didnt like his first performance as much but i would still rate it better than adam who sang.. oh no wait, i meant screamed cry by aerosmith. it was SO horrible but dont worry, he didnt get any bad comments. i cant believe how much the judges like adam that its annoying. they re ALWAYS praising him and i feel like the other contestants do not get as much credit as they should. i mean look at kris last night, his 2nd performance was better than anyone else that night but he wasnt given as much credit as adam who was just boring and lame throughout last night. and all the judges kept saying about adam is.. oh, if u dont get into the finals next week, this will be the biggest upset ever in idol history and blah blah blah.. seriously?! i dont wanna see him in the final at all but i know he ll be in anyhow because of his gothic/ emo/ i dont know what else to describe look that appeals to some people. i admit he can sing but i just do not like him.

anyhow, i voted for kris last night. yes, my first time ever voting. i voted for kris. arkansas fan right here. so he'd better get into the finals or else i ll faint. i m really excited for the show tonight. 8 hours till then (:

KRIS KRIS KRIS!!!

on a randon note.. i m having a stiff neck. ugh.

just made breakfast. or say my friend made omelette for me. i made our strawberry crack. haha. we dont know the exact name to this dessert which consists of strawberry, banana, peaches, and pineapple so we just call it strawberry crack cause it s sooooo good. whatev, i made the thing with my friend, gina, giving me instructions. so it s done and it s sitting in the fridge chillin.

gonna take a short nap now and then go lay out in the sun to get my tan back. it ll be the first time laying out/ being in the sun since last summer. need to get some color back in me. haha. i m excited for that. apparently the weather forecast for today says sunny all day so i m really hoping it ll be that way.

summer school starts in less than a week. it starts next monday. and i m not doing summer school cause i messed up my grades in my classes and i m taking it to make up for it. many people have the misconception that if u do summer school means you didnt do well in school during the year. but that s so not true. however, there are people who did mess up during the year hence they have to take summer sch but not everyone is like that. most people take summer sch to get their credit hours in so that in senior year, they do not have to take that many classes and have it easy. basically that s the reason i m doing it. and my other friend, megan, she s taking summer school so that she can graduate in 3 years which she is going to and so she ll be graduating the same time as me.

i have less than a year before i graduate from college. it s kinda crazy how fast time flies. it seemed like only yesterday that i came to Arkansas to start college, begin a new life, and meet amazing friends. i am so thankful that i was given this opportunity to come to the US and experience all of this. it s the best thing that has happened to me. and i do not regret a single bit of it even though i ve had to be away from my family. but i ve definitely learnt so much during this period of time. this time next year, i dont know what i ll be doing with my life but i know for sure that when i look back, i m not gonna have any regrets but only happy memories. talking about life after college, i seriously have NO IDEA what i m gonna do. this is scary. seriously. i m majoring in communications and minoring in asian studies but i dont know what i wanna do with my major at all. it s so broad that i m at a lose. i m thinking of doing an internship/ getting a job over the summer when i get home to test the waters in the communications field. so if anyone has any job recommendations, pls let me know. i ll be interested to look it up and try. i m looking at something along the lines of public relations. but then again, if there are any other job opportunities i wouldnt mind trying cause i may end up liking it even more. so if any has anything, pls pls pls let me know.

on a random note.. i need a hair cut sometime soon cause my hair is getting to long and heavy for my head. haha. ok.. that was lame. but whatever.

i know i should totally be satisfied with a GPA of 3.8, 4 As and 1 B but i m not at all. cause that B wasnt suppose to be a B at all. i was SO close in getting an A. i should have gotten it. it s a long story. i m not gonna ramble about it here. but i m seriously so pissed right now. 3.8 two semesters in a row. damn it. it s just so frustrating. i seriously wanna go hang myself right now!!!!! why? why? why? i honestly have the worst luck in the world. AAAHHHHHHHH.
shoot me please. seriously.

i m totally flippin a shit right now. it s gonna take me a LONG time before i ll get over this. oh, dont worry, i ve emailed my teacher 3 times alrd to try and get him to give me and A. that s how anal and persistent i ve been. there was no one way i was gonna let me A slip by without giving it a fight. i know.. sounds really dramatic. but u have no idea how much i had to study for this class over the entire semester. the most shit i ve ever had to do was definitely in this class. hence this frustration that i have. i need to smash some plates now i think. i dont know. bah.. i dont know what to do!!!!!

no prizes for guessing where i am right now. in the library of course. my last day in the library studying. i have one more final to go. just one more tmr and i m DONE!!!! i cant wait. i ve been spending way too much time in the library and too much time studying. but i must say that it has paid off. as of now, since i ve taken 4 finals, i hoping/looking at 4 A's. the last one which i have tmr is persuasion and this is the deciding factor to my otherwise perfect 4.0 GPA semester. i have to get almost a 100% on the final tmr. sounds impossible eh but i spoke to my professor and he said it isnt impossible so i m definitely gonna be giving a shot at it. so i m gonna be studying all day for it and studying super hard for it. i already starting studying yesterday. i m really really praying that i ll be able to pull off something miraculous tmr and get an A in the class. please. i came so close last semster with 3.8- 4A's and 1 B!!!! ugh. i dont want it to be like that again this semester.

anyhow, i had a final yesterday- media violence and before i took that final i had 2 cups of coffee and i usually never drink coffee but i needed it so badly. and dont worry it didnt really help me that much. so later during the day around 6pm i bought this energy drink which i ve never tried before. i couldnt find red bull so i had to settle for something else and it actually tasted pretty good. and this one definitely worked. it worked way too well. i couldnt fall asleep till 3am and i had intended on going to practice at 6am. so when i evetually did fall asleep and my alarm went off, i couldnt get up and i knew if i did go to practice i wasnt gonna make it through today esp since i need to be studying. but.. feeling guilty, i went to swim when i finally got up at 10am with ting. swam for about 1.5 hrs. stopped by starbucks to get an iced caramel macchiato and now i m sitting at the library ready to start my battle with my books. i need to pull through today and be productive. i can do it!!!

after practicing in the morning, i had breakfast, took a quick shower and headed to the library to study. got there at 1030am fiddled around for awhile before starting work at 11. i was studying for 20mins and then all of a sudden i felt so sleepy. so i went to the couch in the library and took a 35 min nap. haha. but i felt so good after. power nap worked. got back to my books and 30mins later i was craving for chocolates so i went to the cafe and bought some snacks. and for real this time i started studying all the way and i havent stopped since and the clock reads 540pm now.

all i can say is i m about to blow my brains out from studying. i am so mentally exhuasted from studying. 3 finals down 2 to go. i spend up to AT LEAST 6 hours in the library everyday. since last saturday. i dont even know wht was the longest time i ve been in here. but i ve practically been living in here studying ): what a life. hopefully it ll pay off when my grades come out.

cant wait for finals to be over so that i can catch up on my sleep and rest.

- you knocked on the glass window and surprised me

here i am sitting in the library, desparately trying to study but not succeeding. i ve been to the library every day since sat. to study of course. had a final today... kinda effy about it but i do hope i still get my A in the class. my big final is tmr- mediated comm. currently i have a 89.5 in the class. just 0.5 away from an A so basically i have to ace the final to get my A. ugh. so i ve been studying for it. but i m still not confident of it. been trying to memorise stuff but it aint really working. i spent the last one hour on one question. totally sucks. feel so tired and drained that i dont wanna study now. the stress is definitely building up. i m falling asleep here in the library. cant concentrate. this sucks. honestly. have a play rehearsal later at 7pm. not looking forward to that. basically i just do not wanna do anything now but i cant. i need to be making full use of all the time i have!!!!

yesterday was kinda crazy studying but your surprise show up definitely made my day.

1 week till end of finals.